I Want To Know Pain ~ Anjelica Silber
I wasn’t what you’d call a nice girl. Don’t get me wrong, I was courteous and polite and all. What I’m saying is: I had a pretty dirty mind. Where I’m from, people were supposed to be chaste and pure. I was the opposite.
After watching a BDSM tape at the age of nineteen, I could think of nothing else. Until that day, I had never thought of myself as kinky. Now, I was keen to explore my desire to be hurt and humiliated. I did realise I would be considered a pervert if someone was to find out – but that somehow made everything even more exciting!
My boyfriend at the time was a lovely guy, but he was way too innocent for me. I began to look for men who would satisfy my seemingly abnormal needs. Working at a hotel, I had lots of foreign guests to choose from…